Tuesday, 21 April 2009

I Love You, all the same!!!!

You never told your loved ones about me
Never once took my name
And had it not been for your friends
The situation would have been just the same.

And even after they knew about me
Even affter they came to approve
You never had the nerve to speak freely
Until you locked the doors to your room.

I'd thought things would change
After you moved to a new place
But, there too, you never took my calls
Until you found utter solace.

And again I thought things would be different
Now that you are a grown up earning man
But from what I see, I know you wouldn't change
My dear, even though, you very well can.

And I know I'll always be that lowest of all
Priorities in your life
Disrespected, Disowned
Always a girlfriend, never a would-be-wife!



xoxo, nadia said...

Whats this all about Almas? Fill me in!

Nice poem

●๋•guℓѕнαn●๋•™ said...

exactly aapi...i am confused...is everything k?

xoxo, nadia said...

Hey Almas, if you would rather not say in case its personal, I just hope you are fine...

Even though I said the poem is nice, it sounds angry and sad too.


JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

Salaam nads
:) well, makin a long story short. . .
i have a boyfriend, Azhar. . . We have been together for the past 7 years 7 months. . . . Alhamdulillah, but its only a 'metaphorical' together. He's my senior. . . So we have never been ACTUALLY together. . . Different schools, different colleges, different states. . . So the only thing that keeps us 'together' is the phone... He never takes my call in front of his parents or friends...and this makes me feel so bad. . I mean , we are grown up now. His parents are ok. I am fed up of waiting for his parents to sleep before he can talk. Twas ok in school. . . . Now, he s got a job. Why to be so scared now? I don know. . . . I feel bad :( :( :(
thanks for the hugs :)
really needed that :)

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

Assalam gulguli :)
you know my story already, so, nothing really needs to be told. . . Except the wont-take-your-calls-in-front-of-others problem. . . :( :( :( baaki Alhamdulillah is gr8. . . .:)
and well
hope your exams go well dear, will pray for you. . . I can understand bout not being on orkut much. . . :) good gals study hard. . . :) be a good gal. . .
and hey. . . You can always message me anywhere, no need to login to orkut for that. . .
tc. :)

xoxo, nadia said...

Oh Almas, I know how that feels ):

You have been 'with' him for such a long time and it's as though he is denying your existence in front of others.

You should talk to him about this. Both of you are adults now and tell him that you are hurt by his actions as though he is ashamed of you.

Almas, if he IS ashamed of being 'with' you, he's not worth it. You're a wonderful girl and there's someone out there who will love you and treat you with respect.

However, you do need to find out..Maybe he has reasons and if you can understand and accept those reasons, InshaAllah, everything will work out fine...

*hehe, remembering your InshaAllah post.

Love you loads my little mermaid (:

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

Oh. . . . . Thats the whole problem :( :( he IS worth it. . . . he loves me a lot. . . I know that part. . But, like you told i feel he is denying my existence in front of his parents. And know what? His mom is very cool while talkin to me. I wonder what scares him. I really feel its high time he starts takin my calls.
well, his reason is that We (his family and me) are special to him, and so he doesnt talk in front of his friends, he moves out of the room, or tells us to call him later. . . Alrite. . .i can understand that. . . He baby talks me a lot. . .cares for me like im his little baby. . . So, its k. But, wen he is with family, he doesn even take my call. . . :( :( i know im makin his life difficult when otherwise he is so wonderful. . . I know i should overlook this one thing. But what to do? Am human after all. . . I fail to understand that if his mom and me are at such pleasant terms, why doesnt he talk to me in front of her. . . :( :( :( :( :( He is scared. Thats all. And BOYS SHOULD NOT BE SCARED :X :X :X

xoxo, nadia said...


He sounds SOOOO loving. Can I have him? LOL

Anyways, you said he babytalks alot and treats you with so much love like you are his little baby...

Maybe I should use the word 'embarrassed' instead of 'ashamed'.

You are right. He IS a BOY therefore of course he doesn't want his friends or his mom listening to him talk to you like that. He would start blushing and get teased by them.

You know what? When I liked this boy back in high school, I used to walk away from my friends to answer his calls...because I was shy infront of them..not because I was ashamed of him.

It is cool that your mom and him are on pleasant terms. Maybe I'll get a wedding invite soon?

Lotsa love and hugs...

xoxo, nadia said...

*ooops, i meant his mom and you...but im sure your mom and him are on pleasant terms too.

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

Lolz :D
. . . Well, ya. . . Maybe you are right . . . . He is Embarrassed to talk that way in front of his friends. . . . But. . . I don know. . . :( :( it gets difficult to reach him sometimes. . . Wen he is busy with some work and with his family or friends . . . . :(
. . . I think i should just overlook it :(
and ya my mummy is also at good terms with him...
But cant say bout marriage. :( he is an engineer. . . And engineers need a longer time to get into a stable job... He's got to do his MBA . . . And his mom wants me to do a pg before marriage, . . . . :( have got two more years of mbbs inshaAllah . . . And three years of pg inshaAllah (that is only if i clear the entrance and all other exams in first chance)that itself gives us five years in hand. . . Its a longtime. . . You never know what happens :(

newaz. . . Forget bout me. . . My 'love' is old now :) :) someone is so freshly in love ;) ;) ;)

xoxo, nadia said...

HIS mom wants YOU to do a pg?

*ok I don't know what a pg is but...

Why is she setting criteria to the marriage??? Weird..

Anyways, you have been together for SEVEN years...5 years will go by so fast, you wont even realise it.

I think 5 years is a fair wait to make sure that you are going to be spending the remainder of your life with the right person.

Haha Im NOT in love *screams in denial


queen said...

salam Almas a new side to you i didnt know about A Boyfriend, im surprised!!as you know i am married and have been for the length of time you have know ur man, but my hub gets all awkward if i call him and his parents are there, please explain that one!!

Falling Up said...

I hope the situation changes! I'm assuming it's not the right time to get married, but if he was then that would make things a lot easier. Maybe he just doesn't want to take calls in front of his parents because he doesn't want them to think badly of you? Maybe he thinks by talking to you in front of your parents will give them a bad impression?

●๋•guℓѕнαn●๋•™ said...

walekum salaam aapi....

well pls pray for me...coz i am reading i dont know when the "studying" will come *sigh*

as far as Azhar bhai (is bhai is ok wid him, lol) is concerned..well aapi most guys are lik ds or atleast Azhar Bhai and my soon-to-be fiance are surely in d list (i ll tell d whole story later *blush*)

Though he has spoken to his parents about me bravely (something really fantastic and unexpected :P ) and showed them my pic and made them call my parents and even to talk to me, he himself spoke to my parents, etc etc...still he doesn take my call b4 parents or frnds...not even b4 his bro who lives wid him and knows every bit of our relationship....he thinks its kinda awkward or strange ...god knows....

but he still loves me..and i can assure that...we too just have the phone as medium..he wont take my call instantly but ll call in flat next 10 mins...:) so think thats ok....

Azhar bhai is not ashamed or embarrassed of u i guess...it just might be that he s following the so called respect-ur-elder (forgotten) tradition of Indian and moreover muslims ;)
Allah Hafiz

Lisa said...

I hope that the situation changes very soon. Inshallah he will tell his family, and I know they will all love you. Keep your head held high sis, you've already fought this hard, keep fighting and you will be so happy together. Love you.

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

well pg is post graduation..
tsnot a condition for marriage :D
its like... better finish it off b4 u get married and get busy wid kids.
coz u don find time to get back to studies.

:) well prolly yes.. i think the 5 yr wait wil do us gud
love u :)

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

@ queen
lolz sister! ya twas a surprise.. ive mentioned bout him in the earlier posts in this blog...

well, bout ur husband
either he is strange or the whole 'male' world is strange. in any case, not takin calls of ones wife is totally strange. :o :o

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

@ falling up
oh yes sister!!! you told me just wat he says... he tells me ki he thinks others mite think 'bad' bout us !!!!!!!!!!!!
i don understan y.. but.. yes dats one of his reasons..

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

@ gulguli
:)can i give u a little chummi for that reply ????
ya!!! i guess dats the thing...
i was scared i have made azhar a 'villain' on my blog! wen he's such a sweet hero.
and yes bache.. i shall inshaAllah pray for u. don worry.k?
and ha! tell bhai saab salaam. ;)
love u :*
khuda hafiz :)

JaLpArI - tHe MeRmAiD said...

@ lisa
hey he's told them.... it's just that he dsnt take my calls in front of them :) :)
im not alllll thaaattt saadd
:) :) :)
and well sis men are always a fite :(
:D :D :D :D
love u too


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