Ever thought how nice it wud be if we cud ‘save’ moments in our lives just like we save songs and videos in the computer? And then be able to see them whenever we want? As many times as we want?
Certain moments are just so perfect that we wish we could die then and there.. never having to see any imperfection again. But then, there’s alwaz something better than perfection that we expect and we seek to go on…. And in the attempt, lose that which was perfect.
But, tell me… are we wrong in hoping for something better than the perfect?
Are we being greedy?
Or is it that we are simply taking a risk?
For wat is the line between these two? Between taking a risk and being greedy?
They say that ‘you cud have won, had you gone just another mile’. And they also tell us the story of the man who went on running to cover as much of land as he cud so that by sunset he wud have a huge expanse of land as his property, but, unfortunately he collapses out of the strain and dies.
So, when I, as a reader, read these two contradictory things… wat am I to make out of it? how am I to use it to help me live my life in anyway better than I had been living before I had these two sides of the coin presented before me?
I guess that’s the whole deal.
The deal of ‘having two sides to the coin’.
Coz’ life is in its entirety, a big risk. And every step we take is a risk… coz we know not what wud happen.
Then whether I run that extra mile or not is of no consequence.
I may run and collapse and die….. that’s the risk I am taking when I am tryin to get more- and this ‘getting more’ can be either interpreted as ‘being greedy’ or ‘achievein your dreams’ depending on the Author you are reading, or the Swami you are hearing.
Or I may choose to hold my reins. To reason with myself that I need to stop running now. In that case I risk being a loser, coz maybe had I run that extra mile, I’d have the most fertile land in the world.
Every step is a risk.
To move ahead is a risk.
To stay behind is a risk.
And it’s as essential to life as is breathing.
And both of them go on without our conscious effort.
Yet, the fact remains that every step in life is a risk.
If I held on to you…. I’d feel that I have ‘the perfection’. But, that wud be a risk coz I mite have found out, later, someone ‘better than the perfection’.
And now I have moved on. And the risk that lies ahead is that I mite find out, later, that ‘the perfection’ was actually the best. that YOU were the best.
But, at least now, I know that at the end I will find out. I wont continue to live in an assumption…. An assumption of you being the best or someone else being the best or whatever.
I trust in the process of life.
I trust in my God.
Who am I to say that nothing good will turn up?
How do I know that the perfect moment has passed?
And if both are risks- moving ahead and staying back.
I have chosen the risk I am going to take.
I am moving ahead.
And if there are people who’d call it greed, cheers to them!
Wish them good luck in staying behind….
Wish them good luck in holding on to what they have….
Wish them good luck in not losing wat they’ve got.
I am greedy in one way…
You are greedy in another.
My perfect moment is yet to arrive, inshaAllah.
And if you are willing to listen..let me tell you something from the deepest corner in my heart….
The perfection is not in the moment.
The perfection is inside you.
The tiniest of beauty cud be the seventh heaven if God has perfected your vision.
And what are the Heavens to an eye that can see no beauty?
So Alhamdulillah :) :) :)
My every next moment is perfect-er than the one going by.